Week 2 - #dreamdone #wequest

Oh boy!  If ever there was a roundtable discussion meant for me, this one is it!

I really connected with Ishita in this discussion, and her description of having the capacity to sit all day scrolling through Facebook and watching Netflix hit the nail right on the head!  

For those of you reading these entries piecemeal, this is a part of a blog series around Quest 2018, a series of discussions and prompts to help you envision and enact your best year ever! You can read other people's responses to this quest by searching #wequest, or #purpose, and #dreamdone -- which I encourage you to do!  Lots of very interesting responses out there to all this! 

Anyway, this roundtable discussion was just what I needed, when I'm thinking about my productivity throughout the year, and how I can improve it!  I know it must be improved, I do have a lot of time that I seem to waste with nothing to show for it, except for realizing how well Facebook is doing getting all these advertisers to buy ads! The thing is, I had just this question rolling around in my head.  It's not that I am not productive at all, it's that I am very sslllooooowww. I take my time doing things, I take my time with my goals, and if I don't feel like doing what I've carved out for myself to do, I won't!  I'm anti-schedule, the fastest way to get me to rebel is to write down that I have to do something! I'm also a procrastinator, and there is literally no such thing as accountability in my world! I don't even trust anyone enough TO have them help me be accountable, and I have no money to pay anyone to do it! Plus, I hate authority, so anyone stepping into that position gets an immediate punch to the throat, symbolically speaking! 

Woof. Talk about starting behind the 8 ball! I feel like I dug myself a nice little ditch at one point in my life, and not wanting to admit my mistake, started digging a series of tunnels and dens to hunker into so I never had to come out! The thing is, I don't think that surrounding myself in solitude like that was a mistake at all. What I have a problem with is motivating myself on a regular basis to be more productive than I ever have been in my life! What I have a problem with are time wasters and distractions, all of which I create, all of which I CHOOSE to engage in because it's SO much easier to scroll Facebook now and paint later than to put the phone down and get whatever the next step is done!  

So, since I have been already thinking about how to overcome this, I can share what I've been exploring!  The answer is -- I DON'T KNOW! Allright, I do know. I can start with, and have started with, creating a LOOSE schedule, which includes blocked periods of time for social media (one time for personal, another for business). I have a major habit of rejecting schedules, it'sbeen there all my life.  I will delibrately sabotage schedules, especially if I feel overwhelmed, or extrememly busy. So, to circumvent that I create a looser schedule that can be adjusted on a day to day basis, with goals set weekly, monthly, quarterly. 

The other thing I can do is get a person who will help me be accountable to myself!  I let myself off the hook SO easily! Ishita describes in the discussion how her habits of time wasting were easier to overcome when she had a person to be accountable to! Perhaps it is time to find that person? I think it is, as I am moving into the first real actions to getting my best year done! 

So, now I will answer the instigations... 

ISHITA’S INSTIGATION

If what you desired most – the book deal, the mentor you’re scared to send the email to, the perfect partnership- what you’ve wished and prayed for – if it landed on your doorstep tomorrow, would you be ready for it


The really funny thing about this instigation is that while I was listening to it, but still pondering #purpose and my response to that, I was exploring with my soul what I really wanted. I'm always questioning my dreams, my goals, is THIS what I really want? I feel like when I envision my #bestyear the way that I did, that it was somehow incomplete. So, I think I would be as surprised as any with what actually arrived if this were to happen! I feel the need to get clearer on my vision, they are all so vague, and they all lead with the medium. The good part about this instigation is that while I don't know exactly what would arrive out of all the things I think I want, I would be ready for any one of those things to appear! I can handle it! 


CHARLIE’S INSTIGATION

When prompted to dream, a natural default for many of us is to start thinking and end up in our head. We dream of logical possibilities, things we might do, places we might be, and so on.

What’s often left out of it, though, is how we feel. Since feeling drives action more than thought does, this is a major oversight and often leads to dreaming that never turns into action.

So, rather than dreaming from the head, I want to prompt you to dream from the heart. There are many ways to go about this, but choose one of the prompts below that tugs the most at you:

1) What do you want to feel at the end of 2018 that you currently don’t feel or don’t feel enough of? (Good: I want to feel excited about what I’m working on; not so good: I want to know what’s the right thing for me to focus on.)

2) When you look over or think about the items you’ve dreamed up for next year, which, if removed, causes you to wince or evokes some sense of pain or regret? Suggestion: get rid of all the optional items that don’t cause pain if they’re booted.

3) Place your hand on your heart. Imagine yourself at the end of next year. What calls to you? Pay more attention to what’s coming from your body than from your head. You’ll feel it. (Hat tip to Courtney Carver for the hand on your heart tip)

 


1) I want to feel satisfaction at the end of the year, and excitment about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it! There is a sense of wonder, and awe that I feel like I'm craving more of.  I want to look back at the end of 2018 and feel that wonder at what I actually did! 

2) So, I'll start with my painting.  If I removed painting from my goals for next year, I do feel a sense of lose.  I want to paint.  Another of my goals achieved is Poi.  When I envision Poi being removed, I don't feel pain, but I do feel dissapointed. There is a fleeing of lose there too, so we'll keep poi! The last goal I envisioned was replacing my Massage Therapy career with Web Development/Coding. This is trickier. I don't exactly feel upset, nor a sense of loss about not achieving this goal. I feel like I'm doing either of these activities because poverty in America is a real thing. So, I would say that without the financial support that either Massage Therapy or Web Development bring, I cannot do any of these things. Well, maybe Poi. 

3) Again, that feeling of satisfaction. I want to feel like I did all I could to get as far as I could, and it really happened.

So, that's it! I'll do checkbacks to see how I'm doing in the first 3 months of 2018, and which goals I've been able to implement!